Friday, September 25, 2009

Boys



Joe is constantly reminding me of why I like having my camera with me, always.

I keep thinking of this Diane Arbus image...
Mind you, I am not comparing myself to her. At all. Like, at all.
But I think this kid and Joe would have caused some trouble together.

5.5 Hours

And I could be here.

Monday, September 21, 2009

To, Everyone


I hope you know.

1. I'm sorry.

2. I love you.

3. I'm trying.

From, Melanie

PS Maybe read this again tomorrow.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Momma



I just wanted to tell you...
I was thinking of the time we went for a road trip in the Pace Arrow motor home. To Zion National Park, I think.

We were driving through the desert,
in Arizona,
in traffic,
in a heatwave.

The motor home was overheating, so Dad was forced to turn off the air conditioning. One by one, we all began to come to the conclusion, that we were going to die. And as temperature continued to rise, we all began to come to the conclusion, that we would welcome death.

In my daze (created by a combination of heat-exhaustion and gingersnap consumption), I turned towards you for assistance. But you just were standing at the sink, and on the counter top you had all of our beach towels stacked, one on top of the other. You proceeded to soak them under the faucet.

I thought you had lost it; that you had mistaken the towels for pasta and were preparing for dinner. Then you took the stack of soaked towels, placed them in the freezer, walked back to the front of the motor home, and re-stationed yourself in the passenger's seat.

At that point, I believe I lost consciousness for about an hour. I awoke to the sensation of snowflakes engulfing my tiny head, and opened my eyes to darkness. I thought,

"So this is what death is like. How unexpected."

As my delusion began to wear off, I realized that I wasn't dead, but rather, being covered by a towel. A big frozen beach towel. It was the greatest feeling of relief that I have ever felt; and still is to this day. I peeked through from under my ice-shield of comfort, and saw the other four kids blanketed by frozen towels. And at the driver's and passenger's seats sat you and Dad, and your frozen towels/turbans.

NICE MOVE, MOM!

I still use that move. You will even see my dogs walking around with capes made of frozen towels on those hot LA days that we have been frequenting.

Ok, I just wanted to tell you I was thinking about you and all the awesome things you invent.
I love you.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Early Morning War


Yosemite
7 AM
Joe and Sofia
We play War and Uno.
I lose hard/win big.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Soon As I Let It


I'm going to be nice
To myself this time.
I'm alright, I think.
Yes, I think
I might just be.

Lots of days spent
Planning on getting back
To who I was before
The moments pushed me
Pretty far from home.

Lots of days wasted
Watching the words
While they came out,
So for to catch them
Before they get to the rest of you.

I never wanted you upset. With me.
But you get upset anyhow,
Despite my best efforts.
Despite my worst lies.
So I'll stop watching and

Listen for a while,
To what I meant to say.
Mostly because I forget
Who it was
I meant to be.

I have a vague idea, and I think it will all come rushing back in.
Soon as I let it. Be.